Healing is not your responsibility

Life is not asking you to grow. It is asking for your participation. – Alan Watts

We spend so much time trying to improve ourselves, heal ourselves. The constant anxiety of ‘Am I doing it right ?’ ‘Am I improving in life?’ ‘Am I progressing?’ The constant race for an imaginary future where things are going to be alright. But more than that, it shows our outright assumption that ‘I’ or ‘Me’ is very important.

Maybe it is not your job to heal yourself, not to improve yourself. You can simply live moment to moment spontaneously as life comes by. In living, you will see: life and body have always been breathing through you, inhaling and exhaling. Life has and will always keep tearing you apart piece by piece and put you back together again and again. Life will wound you and heal you again and again. Life has and will break down what was to make space for what will be eternally. No finish line, no permanent healed version, no destination. Simply this process and ongoing movement, of dissolving and assimilating, falling apart and coming back together, over and over. 

Then you ask what is the point of all this? 

How else will you experience joy if you don’t experience grief, for everything is relative. Maybe it is far simpler: to be alive to all this. To be alive to witness this as life passes through you.

We assume that we are passing through life growing, improving, progressing; maybe it is life that is passing through you, eternally dancing.